Everything's going down

can you hold me just for once?... you won't...
can I hold myself?... will I?
I feel like I'm falling... and I'm just letting me fall... I'm too tired...
... you won't... why do you leave?... why does everybody always leave?... why do I?
why do I have to be so dramatic... what is it that makes me see like everything wrong? all the time!... I'm just too tired... tired to be me... tired to be tired... tired to be... tired... and still me...

hold me just one moment, please... can't you notice I need you? and everything's going down...